Not a few people have told me that I can be intimidating. Not a few people have also told me that I have very high standards. I guess it is a logical explanation as to why I am still single. I can not blame people for thinking that. I can understand how I may come off too strong for some people.
But here's the thing. If people find me intimidating, then it's their problem. Sometimes you have to build walls in order to know who has the courage to break through them. If people think I have very high standards, then I guess they have serious insecurity issues.
Some of my friends may flinch at this but I am actually shy. Really. Leave me all alone at a social function then I would most likely be a wallflower. I hate small talk. I rarely start conversations with strangers. And I am usually awkward around new people. If people think otherwise, then I guess they have failed to see through my tough exterior. And if so, then I guess they are not worth meeting; much more worth dating. Only a few people have managed to break through the walls I have unconsciously created. Fortunately, they are the ones with whom I have developed special bonds - friends for life, relationships (official or unofficial) I won't forget, and a soul mate.
To be honest, I really do not think I have that too high a standard. Please. I am not
looking for perfection. How can I when I know I myself am not perfect? I am just looking for someone decent-looking, can carry a good conversation, and open to new experiences as I am. Is that too hard? Seriously. I have always wondered where this notion of me having very high standards emanated from. Is it because I love dining out and travelling? That can be but I don't expect to be always doing that with people I date. I can be just as happy in a fast food joint as I would be in a posh restaurant. I can just be as comfortable in an MRT as I would be in a boeing 747. My examples may be shallow but the point is that I can be flexible.
I guess what I am trying to say is, I am who I am. It is easier to judge me from how I appear. But it is more rewarding to go beyond that.
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It's great that you're comfortable in your own skin, but maybe meeting someone new and different requires you to lower those barriers (even just by a little). i'm probably the last person that should be giving advice on this matter, but what the heck :)
ReplyDeletei think in a way i try to. it does take time. there's a period of adjustment. we didn't click right away now did we? i'm like a bottle of tequila - you may not be able to take it at first but you'd soon get addicted.
ReplyDeleteor in a more jolog way of putting it, para akong shot ng tequila, isusuka sa una pero hahanap hanapin mo din pag gusto mong sumaya. :P
First of all, ang jologs nga (re Tequila joke).
ReplyDeleteSecond, I appreciate your efforts. As if for me e di ba? Hehehe. But it's also good that you know your standards. Don't worry; it really does take time. Just think: even the best guitar needs fine tuning. :)